From the title you guys must be wondering what I mean by “It”, well I’m referring to ‘Love’.
Yes Love. I know, I’m the girl who you thought still believes in that thing… But I don’t anymore, well I think I don’t. Why?
Well its because when you are caged up and your only escape is books and movies, you learn of love. That love portrayed by those tools give people extremely high expectations of love. Yes they give you the strength to fall in love but not the strength to confront it. I’m not saying love doesn’t exist, but I’m saying… I wish it didn’t…
You guys must be thinking it’s easy for me to say cause I’ve already Fallen in love but trust me that Fall has left behind something I can’t explain and something I wish I didn’t feel. Because of that one fall, I even mistook friendship for love and I’m never going to forgive myself for that. The only love that is acceptable in my life is the one I feel when I see people in love, songs of love that leave me out of breath and stories of love that will never exist. Before, These stuff used to only make me happy, dream and long for such love but now they make me happy and break my heart at the same time. You can say it’s the aftereffects of a wrong choice but when a heart loves, it loves…
So that is why I wish it were curse; I wish I’d never met it in my dreams and I know words have power but I’m still going to say this, I wish love didn’t exist. Only those lucky enough to find it in their first try have it easy, but those who have got their hearts broken. I know and I would like you to know it’ll pass. It’ll pass, trust me but the feelings you felt never leave. They might still make you smile and then make you realise how stupid you were to fall in love in the first place.
Anywayyyyyysss I’m on Summer Vacation, what about you all?
Aah curious about why the love talk? Wellll . . . recently my parents keep bringing up the topic of marriage and I guess I’m just preparing myself for something that might come tmrw, in a week or even in a year. I’m preparing myself mentally but to be honest I get a shiver ever single time they “joke” about it or just mention it some way or the other.
Well put that aside, its a personal matter. I want to how have you all been!? It’s been sooo long since I’ve written my thoughts well there have been too many thats why.
So Is it summer where you? Are you on a trip out of country? Are you enjoying yourself? Are you living your life?
Well goodnight from my side cause it’s 1 am where I am 😅
Lots of Love,